As we have seen on this blog for many years now there is a great cost to living a double life.
The leading of a double life by seminarians has led to the demise of the Irish College in Rome and the near demise of Maynooth.
We have watched the various characters go “off stage” – Gorgeous, Horny Andy, Chris Derwin, Rory, McCamley, McVeigh, Ger Fitzgerald, etc.
In many of these cases the problem was the breaking if the 11th Commandment: “Thou shalt not be caught”.
That of course means there are many actors out there who have not being caught – YET!
For some of those, their time will come.
Others may succeed in “fooling all of the people all of the time”?
But what a repugnant achievement?
But living a double life is not healthy for anyone.
Apart from all the people and lives you destroy by being a phoney – even if others dont know you are a phoney, the person in the mirror knows – and more importantly God knows.
Knowing you are phoney, and living as a phoney, eats away, whether or not you like it, at your self respect.
And the longer you live as a phoney, the more your moral integrity rots away. In the end you are, as Jesus said, “a whitened sepulchur” – white on the outside and inside full of rottenness and decay.
Living a double life and being a phoney, leads to a very quickly developing cancer of the soul and spirit.
The double life and phoniness is the exact contradiction of who and what God is – the God whose primary quality is ONENESS.
The person living the double life is split – a true schizophrenic. Schizophrenia as a condition is absolutely destructive of the quality of life – the healthy life, the human life, the spiritual life.
Jesus own words address this: “Be ye one as the Father and I are one”.
THE GREAT CHALLENGE OF LIFE
The great challenge of life, for all of us, is the challenge to be an integrated human being.
That most certainly does not mean to be perfect. Far from it.
Being an integrated human being is about being intensely aware of one’s strengths, one’s weaknesses, one’s contradictions and being able, consciously, to hold all these eggs in the one basket and to be stable, enduring and open.
Living an integrated life is a process, a journey.
Many years ago an old nun gave me a poster. The poster showed a little chicken which has just emerged from the cracked shell. The writing on the poster read:
“JESUS SETS YOU FREE TO BECOME ALL YOU WERE MEANT TO BE”.
“Lord, save us all from the satanic temptation to be a phoney living a double life. Lord, give us the grace to possess some of the oneness and wholeness of God”.