I grew up with a very negative sense of self which lasted for nearly 40 years until I engaged in serious psychotherapy and spiritual awakening.

That negative sense of self came firstly from my immediate and distant ancestors who had themselves being indoctrinated in the very crooked and dysfunctional form of Christianity that we call Roman Catholism.

In fairness, most other churches were as bad.

We were led to believe that:

The BODY was the bad part of us – and

The SOUL was the good part of us.

We were brainwashed into believing that our genitalia were dangerous to our spiritual wellbeing and nearly always a source of sin.

We were told that virginity and celibacy were the greatest of virtues and that marriage, which would not exist in heaven, was nothing more than a guard against “concupience” and a “necessary evil” for providing the World and the Church with new members.

Masturbation, which every normal human being engages in, was a mortal sin.

I was told more than once in the Confessional that every time I masturbated I destroyed 300,000 possible souls.

For the Church of that time and before, the whole human being was in the sperms and the woman merely provided the oven the bread was made in.

As a teenager I knew the very dark corners of every Confessional in the 1960s Dublin.

Years later, a priest I was counselling said to me:

“They wouldn’t let us get rid of our semen and it went to our heads and made us fucking mad”.

The priest was right.

So we were all the victims of Western Christianity and Roman Catholicism.

If you were lucky it turned you into a neurotic.

If unlucky it turned you into a psychotic.

How many thousands of Irish people ended up in mental hospitals, not suffering from a mental illness, but suffering from Christian-itis or Catholic-itis, we will never know.

The famous Irish author Tim Pat Coogan once pointed out that Ireland had been colonised by two forces – the British, politically and the Romanists religiously and morally.

In 1922 we got rid of the Brits from most of our island.

In 2022, a hundred years later, we are well on the way to getting rid of our Roman colonisers.

And it can’t happen a day too soon.


They fuck you up, your priests and nuns.  

    They mean to, and they do.   

They fill you with the guilts they had

    And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn

    By fools in old-style veils and black.

Who half the time were soppy-stern

    And half at one another’s throats.

Religion hands on misery to man.

    It deepens like a coastal shelf.

Get out as early as you can,

    And don’t spawn any clerks yourself.



After sending more than 150 emails to landlords and receiving just two replies, a 21-year-old student is living out of her car in Galway city as her search to find accommodation has become dire.

University of Galway student Jessica McGirr said the Budget 2023 measures that have been announced for students are positive, but they don’t help to address the issue that there are very few rentals available in the country.

She welcomes that the student contribution fee has been reduced by €500, saying it will especially benefit students whose parents don’t qualify for the SUSI grant but they pay their own fees.


A student nurse has said he has slept in his car between work placement shifts to try to avoid the rising cost of fuel.

Jake Benjamin Smart is a mental health student nurse at Ulster University’s Magee campus in Londonderry.

The third-year student is calling on the Department of Health to increase the travel allowance paid to students.

Health Minister Robin Swann announced an increase in payments for most health and social care workers last month.

In a statement, the Department of Health said they are reviewing the mileage rate to be paid to students for the next academic year, starting in September.

Speaking to BBC Radio Foyle, the third-year nursing student said that himself and many of his peers are struggling during the cost-of-living crisis.


We are really in trouble when our uni students and our nurses are reduced to sleeping in their cars as they can’t find a place to rent and the rent to pay for it.

All homelessness is a very distressing problem.

And it’s on the increase.

The primary responsibility for this lies with the government.

The government needs to ompose fines on the owners of empty properties.

They should also impose rent caps on landlords.

The right to shelter is a basic human right

The Churches, including the RCC should not be allowed to have big empty properties.

Jesus did say:

“I was a stranger and you made me welcome”.




The Guardian

A 90-year-old Catholic cardinal and five prominent pro-democracy campaigners have pleaded not guilty in court in Hong Kong for failing to properly register a humanitarian fund they set up to help people arrested in anti-government protests in 2019.

Cardinal Joseph Zen, one of Asia’s highest-ranking Catholic clerics, and his fellow campaigners were arrested in May for “colluding with foreign forces” under a national security law that Beijing imposed on Hong Kong to crack down on dissent. All were trustees of the 612 Humanitarian Relief Fund, which provided legal and financial assistance to more than 2,000 people prosecuted for their part in the 2019 pro-democracy protests. The fund is charged with not properly registering under the societies ordinance, a colonial-era law from 1911.

The fund disbanded in 2021 after police ordered it to hand over information on its donors and beneficiaries.

Prosecutors on Monday told West Kowloon court that the fund, which drew about 270m Hong Kong dollars (£32m) in donations between June 2019 and October 2021, had “political motivation” and supported anti-government groups and activists, local news portal 01 and public broadcaster RTHK reported.


Pope Francis and the Vatican have turned their back on poor Cardinal Zen (90) in order not to annoy the Chinese Communist government.

Cardinal Zen went on trial on Monday for his role in helping those opposed to the behaviour of the Chinese government in Hong Kong.

Its another example of how the RCC intervenes in politics – and always on the side of powerful and corrupt.

China has given the Vatican a lot of money after doing a deal with them a few years ago.

And, in spite of this deal the Chinese continue to imprison and persecute many Catholic bishops, priests and laity loyal to Rome.

The RCC played a negative role in Irish politics for many decades.

Francis himself stands accused of working with the Junta in Argentina.

They did deals with Mussilini, Franco and Hitler.

The abandonment of Cardinal Zen is a disgrace.



THE Guardian

Catholics outnumber Protestants in Northern Ireland for the first time, a demographic milestone for a state that was designed a century ago to have a permanent Protestant majority.

Results from the 2021 census released on Thursday showed that 45.7% of inhabitants are Catholic or from a Catholic background compared with 43.48% from Protestant or other Christian backgrounds. The 2011 census figures were 45% Catholic and 48% Protestant. Neither bloc is a majority.

The demographic tilt was expected but will still deliver a psychological hit to unionists, who for decades relied on a supposedly impregnable Protestant majority to safeguard Northern Ireland’s position in the UK.

Diarmaid Ferriter, a historian and author, said: “It’s been long coming. They have already witnessed the loss of their political supremacy. Seeing the loss of their numerical supremacy is another blow.”


REPUBLICANS need to realise that a majority Catholic population in N. Ireland does not necessarily lead to a United Ireland.

There are such creatures as Catholic Unionists in N. Ireland.

Many Catholics like myself do not want a United Ireland for economic reasons.

Why would I want a United Ireland where I have to pay my GP € 60 for each visit when such a visit is free to us here in N. Ireland?

Why would I want a United Ireland where I have to pay for all my medications when I get them free up here?

Why would I want to I’ve in a country where cars are more expensive and where car insurance is more expensive?

– Where groceries etc are more expensive?

– Where alcohol and restaurant meals are more expensive?

They always said that:

“Unionists are more loyal to the half crown than the crown”.

In these strapped economical times N. Ireland Catholics realise that Republican sentimentality does not pay the gas and electricity bills.



The Tablet

Belgian Flemish-speaking bishops have approved a blessing ceremony for homosexual couples, using several statements by Pope Francis to challenge the Vatican doctrinal office’s ban that said God “cannot bless sin”.

The three-page Belgian document said “such a prayerful moment can be quite simple. The difference with what the Church understands as a sacramental marriage must also remain clear.”

After suggesting prayer texts for the couple and the whole congregation, the document says the ceremony should end with an “intercession, Our Father, closing prayer (and) blessing”.



“Same-Sex Unions in Premodern Europe” (Villard Books) asserts that from the 8th to the 18th Centuries, the Catholic church sanctioned same-sex unions and offered ceremonies complete with prayers for the couple’s union, Holy Communion and rubrics directing the couple to kiss a book of the Gospel, the priest and one another


This is a very big development in the RCC.

Now, Belgian and German bishops are determined to go against the Vatican on this major issue.

I can’t see either sets of bishops backing down.

It will be hard for the Vatican to back down.

That means a collision is on the table.

Will ot lead to a new Reformation?

But. The RCC has a history of blessing sane sex unions.





I find all this new gender pronouns very confusing and often wonder if the tail – the uptight transgender extremists, is wagging the dog – us and society in general.

I have a long history of openness and ministry to the LGBT community and transgender people in particular.

I have accompanied a number of individuals on their journeys/ counselling and surgery as they change gender.

I will call anyone by the name they prefer – male, female or whatever.

If someone wants me to regard them as a he or she I will respectfully obliged.

Bit then they bring this issue up of gender being a continum with male and female at either end – the binaries.

And othere being son here in between and wanting to be referred to by pronouns.

But how are the rest of us to know, immediately and spontaneously what to call someone like this.

Do I really have to ask EVERYONE I meet what pronoun they want me to call them by?

And are people entitled to be offended if I innocently call someone who looks like a man – “he”?

Is all if this not POLITICAL CORRECTNESS gone mad?

Is it a small section of people trying to bully everyone else?

Just wondering?



A priest along with the former parish administrator of a Catholic church in Florida funneled nearly $1.5 million in parishioners’ donations into a secret bank account for personal use, Vero Beach police said Tuesday.

The former pastor of Holy Cross Catholic Church in Vero Beach, Father Richard “Dick” Murphy, died on March 22, 2020, at the age of 80. The administrator, 69-year-old Deborah True, “turned herself in” to the Indian River County Jail in Vero Beach on Sept. 19, police said in a statement posted on the Vero Beach Police Department’s Facebook page.

The Diocese of Palm Beach contacted the police department in December 2021, raising concerns about a fraudulent bank account and the misappropriation of church funds that took place over the course of five years.


The vice president of the German bishops’ conference said Thursday he had thought about resigning after the publication of a report claiming he mishandled abuse cases, but that he had ultimately decided against it.

A report published Sept. 20 said Bishop Franz-Josef Bode mishandled abuse cases in the Diocese of Osnabrück, in northwestern Germany, which he has led since 1995.

The 600-page interim report is titled “Sexual violence against minors and vulnerable by clergy in the Diocese of Osnabrück since 1945.”

The report said in the first decades of his term, Bishop Bode “repeatedly” kept people accused of abuse in office or appointed them to other positions, including management tasks in youth pastoral care.


The same problems keep coming and returning in the RCC.

– Sexual misbehaviour by priests.

– Cover up by bishops.

– Money going missing in parishes, dioceses and religious orders.


The RCC is one of the oldest and most corrupt institutions in world history.

They seem to have developed an uncanny ability to FOOL ALL OF THE PEOPLE ALL OF THE TIME.

But that has been and is changing in our times.

In my lifetime I have come to see right through them.

Many are joining me now.

RC bishops and priests are snake oil salesmen.

Only the brainwashed follow them.




September 22, 2022 from Church Militant by Jules Gomes

Brazil’s top cardinal, who is currently visiting Pope Francis, is covering for a sodomite priest who coerced a 17-year-old boy into sexual slavery, Church Militant has learned.

Cardinal Odilo Pedro Scherer, archbishop of São Paulo, is refusing to comply with a court order that compels him to disclose documents of the archdiocese’s canonical proceedings against homopredator priest Fr. Bartolomeu da Silva Paz.

Brazilian liberation theologian Leonardo Boff reported the sodomite rape and sexual enslavement of Elissandro Dias Nazaré de Siqueira (aka “Eli”) to Pope Francis, a source close to the victim said. The crimes were perpetrated by Fr. Bartolomeu from 2014 to 2017.

Eli’s lawyers, Guilherme Dudus, a graduate of the Pontifical Catholic University of São Paulo, and Dr. Maristela Basso, professor of international law at the University of São Paulo, are appealing to Pope Francis to grant justice to Eli during Scherer’s ad limina visit to Rome.

“This ad limina visit is very curious and really puts Pope Francis to shame,” Dudus told Church Militant. “We request the Holy Father to open an inquiry into the conduct of Cdl. Scherer, the apostolic nunciature in Brazil and the bishops involved in covering up the abuse.”


This is an other terrible scandal and cover up.

The cover up is particularly bad as it goes all the way to the Vatican and Francis.

The stench of rotteness is now coming from every international corner of the RCC




I free to release this email as Bill has been sending it to third parties.

Dear Bill,

I hope that by this stage you realise how much I care about you and in fact love you as my friend.

In writing this I realise that you may be very angry with me and withdraw your friendship from me.

But above all else, a friend is someone who will tell you the truth even if it involves risks.

“Love is not something you protect. It’s something you risk.” “Better to put your heart on the line, risk everything, and walk away with nothing than play it safe. Love is a lot of things, but “safe” isn’t one of them.”

(Gayle Forman)

“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.

(Antoine de Saint-Exupéry)

I was totally exhausted after your visit last weekend

And, while possessing absolutely no expertise in matters medical or psychological, I am worried that you are suffering from a debilitating mental health condition.

I base this worry on my observation and experience of your behaviour at close quarters.

I think you should use your excellent VHI to address this.



Since sending this email to Bill I have had a tirade of abuse from him.

I’m not upset by this as I know the place they are coming from.

I still regard myself as his good, honest friend.

And I am not saying that anything Bill has said, or is saying, is untrue.

Nor do I want a lorry load of  nasty, personalised comments about Bill – and will not publish them.

The purpose of this blog is to persuade Bill or someone close to him to act in his best interests.


As we head into winter Bill is currently homeless and living in a tent.

Last week I paid £ 400 for three nights accommodation for him in Dublin.

If I could afford it I would pay a regular rent for him, but I can’t.

When he stayed with me for 3 nights recently I purchased new bed linen to give him rest and comfort and made sure he had nourishing meals.

I would urge anyone in touch with Bill to give him all the support they can.


I have decided not to allow any comments regarding the second section of today’s blog.

But I will carefully read all comments and reflect on them.




The powerful account below is by Kevin, a survivor of abuse by Cistercian monks on Caldey Island and by Catholic priests. It is the most defining and important example of organised Catholic sexual abuse of children.

It is damning evidence that Catholic paedophile rings exist, hitherto denied or ignored.  These priests and monks are not one-off individuals, one rotten apple, but a whole rotten orchard. It shows how Catholic predators focus their criminal attention on vulnerable families.

Although it has been exposed in Kevin’s local media, nothing has been done. Catholics just ignore these crimes which are hardly unique and are replicated in other Catholic communities, certainly amongst the De La Salles in Ipswich and in my Ipswich Catholic diocese when I was growing up.

But this is surely amongst the worst.

Kevin’s contact details are at the end of his account.  Anything anyone can do to help – such as getting this account in the national media – do let Kevin know.  Or passing this story on in your own social media. It is really important and needs to be known nationally.


At some time during the night, I got woken up by someone getting into my bed, I soon realized it was Father C, he started to touch me in my groin area and then he started to rape me even though I did not know at the time what he was doing.

I screamed and cried for my dad and mam, but no one came to rescue me.

After breakfast Father C wanted us to do confession with him.

The following morning, I woke up alone in my bed, I got dressed and went downstairs, everyone was acting normal morning except my dad took me to another room, pulling down my pants and put some sort of cream on my private bits, he did not say a single word to me.

When it got to my turn he just spoke sexually and upset me.

Father C went back to his parish on the Sussex/Surry boarders.

He did bath the three of us. Father C ,over the holiday, took me to see other priests and Bishops in different parishes.

I knew then that he was showing them his prize, me.

Father C took us back home and again he raped me in my own bed.

For the next 4-5 years Father C would abuse me at my home and now was taking me back to his Parish where priests and Bishops gang raped me. It was a terrifying time and the only escape I had was to go into fantasy world where  my mind mode would protect me from the horrors. It lasted for hours or days.

When the evening got darker, I would be taken into a living room were there’d be up to a dozen priests and bishops waiting for me. I’d be given another tablet and some sweet drink ( Mead ) then a bishop or priest would go to the back of me and take my underwear off and then I would just go into safe mode.

Father Tadd came down to see me on the beach next day, waving chocolates and taken up to the sand dunes.

Eating the chocolates sitting on Father Thadd’s knees he started to grope me between my legs and kissing me wildly on the lips, I was so scared and upset that he was no different than Father C.

Eating the chocolates sitting on Father Thadd’s knees he started to grope me between my legs and kissing me wildly on the lips, I was so scared and upset that he was no different than Father C.


Reading the above words should fill anyone with disgust and a very righteous anger.

This child was gang raped by RC bishops and priests.

He was an innocent lamb slain on their altar.




Here is his presentation of the four roots of the crisis and his explanation.

#1 Homosexuality among the clergy

One of the evident, observable and deepest roots of the sexual abuse of minors is homosexuality among the clergy. Of course, I will not say that all homosexuals are necessarily abusing children. This would be unjust and untrue. But we are speaking about clerical abuse in the Church, and so we have to focus on this illness. 

It has been proven that more than 80 percent of victims were post-pubescent males. It is therefore evident that the nature of the majority of this abuse involved homosexual acts. We have to stress that this is one of the main roots.

#2 Relativism of doctrine

The other main root of the abuse crisis is the relativism on moral teaching which began after the Second Vatican Council. Since then, we have been living in a deep crisis of doctrinal relativism, not only of dogmatics but also of morals — the moral law of God.

Morals were not taught clearly in seminaries over the past 50 years; it was often not clearly taught in Seminaries and Theological faculties that a sin against the sixth commandment is a grave sin. Subjectively there may be mitigating circumstances, but objectively it is a grave sin. Every sexual act outside a valid matrimony is against the will of God. It offends God and is a serious sin, a mortal sin.

This teaching was so relativized… We have to stress this… the relativism of moral teaching, specifically on the sixth commandment. 

#3 A lack of ascesis in seminaries

Another deep cause is the lack of a true, serious and authentic formation of seminarians. There was a lack of ascesis in the life and formation of seminarians. 

It has been proven by two thousand years, and by human nature, that without physical ascesis like fasting, praying, and even other forms of corporal mortifications, it is impossible to live a constant life in virtue without mortal sin. Due to the deep wound of original sin and the concupiscence still at work in every human being, we need corporal mortification. 

St. Paul says: “Make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.” (Rom. 13:14) We can paraphrase these words, saying: do not nurture your flesh too much or concupiscence will dominate you. And this is exactly what often happened in seminaries. Seminarians and priests nurtured the flesh through a comfortable life without ascesis, without fasting and other bodily and spiritual mortifications. 

#4 Above all the absence of a deep and true love for Christ

But to me, the deepest cause of the clerical sex abuse crisis is the lack of a deep and personal relationship with Jesus Christ. When a seminarian or a priest does not have a deep personal relationship with Jesus Christ, in constant fidelity to a life of prayer and really enjoying a personal love for Jesus, he is easy prey for the temptations of the flesh and other vices. 

Furthermore, when you have a deep and personal love of Christ, you cannot deliberately commit a horrendous sin. Occasionally, because of the weakness of human nature, a priest or seminarian could commit a mortal sin against purity. But in the same moment, he is deeply repentant and decides to avoid the next sin at any cost. This is a manifestation of a true love of Christ. But it is for me completely excluded that a person who deeply loves Christ can sexually abuse minors. It is for me impossible. In my opinion, a deep love of Christ excludes this.



Bishop Schneider might be right or wrong in what he says – or even partially right and partially wrong.

He makes the point that over 80% of the sexual abuse victims of priests are post pubescent males on whom priests perform ”homosexual acts”.

Is it accurate to call these acts “homosexual acts” or would it be more accurate to call them “paedophilic acts”?

Doctrinal relativism

I cannot agree with the bishop when he says:

A sin against the sixth commandment is a grave sin. Every sexual act outside a valid matrimony is against the will of God. It offends God and is a serious sin, a mortal sin“.

This is an extremely legalistic view. It is denying that loving sexual expressions between two adults who are not married according to RCC theology and law, are always committing mortal sins.

In this day and age such a view is disgraceful and irrational position will be rejected by very many people.

Corporal mortification. 

Schneider suggests that it is impossible to live a moral life without fasting and other “corporal mortifications”.

Is he talking about people whipping themselves with “self flagalation”?

I hope not.

Above all the absence of a deep and true love for Christ.

It is easy to agree with the bishop on this.

Any person with a deep and true love for Christ could not abuse a child in any way.

But I suppose that does not allow for people who are either mentally ill and those who are sociopathic.

What do readers think of Schneider’s views?