Some years ago I needed a massive FAVOUR – a massive YES from God.

In the event, God said a thundering NO to me.

This led to great pain and humiliation for me.

People gloated at my predicament.

Should I stop walking with God, was a real question for me.

But I simply had to give the same answer that Peter gave to Jesus when Jesus asked him if he was also going to leave him:

“Lord, to whom shall I go? thou hast the words of eternal life. “And we believe and are sure that thou art that Christ, the Son of the living God” (John 6:68–69).


They also think, for some reason, that God is always supposed to say “YES”!

But, prayer, is, at its very root, not about asking God for favours.

Prayer is about being in the presence of God, communing with God and offering Him the worship and praise that is His due.

But, of course, there is, in Christian tradition, the phenomenon of Intercessory Prayer.

And this is rooted in Scripture

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you”. Matthew 7:7.

We Christians believe that God has given us humans free will.

But we forget, that God is free too – in fact infinitely free.

His arm cannot be twisted – at least if He is not willing to let it be twisted.

Even Jesus, the Son of God – knew that there were limits on what He could demand if His Father.

He did not want to be crucified.

In fact He prayed:

“Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me“. Luke 22:42

But then He finished that prayer with:

“Yet. I want your will to be done, not mine”. Luke 22:42

As Job in the Old Testament said


Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble”? Job 2:10


We can ask God for what we want or think we need.

God is free to say YES or NO.

And if He says NO we must be able to say




Many readers will not realise that I spent eleven years as their Irish Columnist.

I had my own page in the Irish edition to write what I wished. No one in the newspaper ever told me what I could write and what I could not write.

Obviously the NOW lawyers in Lobdon vetted everything from everyone for libel. But the great thing about the NOW was that, like myself, it was basically anti establishment.

When I wrotev A THORN IN THE SIDE in 1994 and it became an Irish Number One bestseller, the NOW, serialised it over two Sundays.

That serialisation went down well and they offered me a permanent spot.

As Daly had cut off all my church income the NOW income played a major role in my financial survival.

Naturally, that income was fully reported to the tax man as part of my self employment tax returns.

I also found and worked on many other stories with the NOW chef de bureau and the other journalists based in Dublin.

We did many early RCC exposures in Ireland.


There were many fun aspects to my involvement – the Christmas parties in Dublin and in Fleet Street in London.

Cartoon artists were on hand for all the parties.



The London Christmas parties started at 11 am with a pub crawls down one side of Fleet Street and up the other side.

I have never liked getting drunk and it has not happened me much. There was no way I could up with the seasoned Fleet Street hacks. So I drank some and left much sitting on the table.


For those eleven years the NOW brought me to all the autumn party conferences.

It was very interesting to meet with and chat with senior British politicians like Mo Mowlam, Gordon Rown. Michael Heseltine, Kenneth Clarke etc.

Not many get to see these things from the inside.


The oldest and biggest selling newspaper, the NEWS OF THE WORLD collapsed and closed over the phone tapping of the phones of celebrities and others.

In a shock call one morning from SCOTLAND YARD I learned that my phone was one of those that had been tapped.

All the celebs involved all took personal cases against the NOW.

I was one of 300 “small fry” who got a court agreed sum in compensation.


My experience in and through the NOW was very varied and interesting.

AND – a good preparation for writing this blog.





Only yesterday one of my clerical sources in Armagh has told me that Ryan McAleer was the subject of an ecclesiastical trial / investigation in Armagh in September 2020.

Since June 2020 Eamon Martin had McAleer step aside from ministry.

In spite of this Mc Aleer insisted on celebrating Mass in public.

Francis Bradley

A Canon lawyer called Francis Bradley (Derry) took witness statements.

Apparently the investigation was to enquire into whether or not Ryan Mc Aleer committed a delict against the 6th Commandment.

Below is the Canon in Canon Law dealing with Ryan’s case:

Can. 1395 §1. A cleric who lives in concubinage, other than the case mentioned in can. 1394, and a cleric who persists with scandal in another external sin against the sixth commandment of the Decalogue is to be punished by a suspension. If he persists in the delict after a warning, other penalties can gradually be added, including dismissal from the clerical state.

I’m told the investigators heard from a number of witness – some of who spent up to four or five hours giving evidence and being cross-examined.

My source also claims that Mc Aleer himself refused show up for the hearing and to be interviewed.

The case was heard by three canon lawyers from the Archdiocese of Dublin.

I do not know if a canonical hearing has the power to summons the accused and witnesses?

Probably not.

As you can see from the above, the penalties for this delicit can be suspension from Holy Orders and even dismissal from the clerical state.

My source could not tell me the outcome of the tribunal.

But, as a result EamonMartin pulled Mc Aleer from Dungannon and sent him to Belgium.

So this suggests that there is more going on in Armagh than we previously knew.

Such a tribunal could hardly be set up without the knowledge and agreement of Eamon Martin?

Or was it Eamon Martin’s way of not taking action directly?

A bit like Pontius Pilate sending Jesus to appear Herod?

“……..Pilate sent him to Herod Antipas, because Galilee was under Herod’s jurisdiction, and Herod happened to be in Jerusalem at the time“.

Was Eamon doing a Pontius Pilate with Ryan?

We know that Ryan is still listed on the Armagh clergy list.

Is this temporary?

Is it permanent?

Has Ryan’s case been sent to Rome for resolution?

Are his extra studies part of a going away golden handshake?

Or has Eamon a job lined up for him in some Church sinicure?

Time will tell.

In the meantime, let the rest of us keep the victims in our thoughts, mind and prayers.

Whatever happens, we can be 100% sure that Our Ryan will not go without.



In the past week or so allies of RYAN MC ALEER (maybe Mc Aleer himself) have been placing comments on the Blog seeking to undermine any alleged victim of McAleer.


They aimed at one young man in particular and suggested he was “not right” in various ways and keeping information from his parents and family

In my opinion, this was McAleer and his clerical friends attacking a victim!

###### I asked them to email me their case.

Surprise! Surprise! No email came!

That’s how the RCC and its apparatchiks deal with victims. They literally try and run them off the road.


Ryan Mc Aleer has a longstanding reputation among the clergy for heavy drinking, an unhealthy interest in other substances and for being inappropriate (at least) with young men.

I do not know how many young men have fallen foul of him.

I can only speak with confidence about the young man I have been in touch with.

He claims to have met Mc A in the Dungannon are and was invited back to the presbytery.

There Mc A came on to him and the young man did not want to go there. Mc A went ahead and during the incident the young man suffed a significant physical injury.

The young man went on to report this to Eamon Martin and tge diocesan safeguarding person Aidan Gordon.

The young man says that Eamon Martin told him he believed his story.

“If you knew all I know…..”

The young man later went to the police. The PSNI took a statement and on the basis of it interviewed Mc A.

Currently the case remains open but stands as one man’s word against another.


The Blog has heard of how Ryan Mc Aleer may have had his cherry popped in Rome.

Fr Emlyn Mc Ginn was mentioned in this regard.

There is a lot of information in clerical circles about the promiscuous homosexuality among Armagh priests, seminarians and former seminarians.

Armagh priests, seminarians and former seminarians are like the two gay ghosts….they spend the nights putting the willie’s up each other.

It appears that Armagh is a clerical cess pit and the Dame Amy is happy to preside over it all.

What a horrible situation.

But our Number One priority should always, always, be to listen to and help victims.



When I or my followers mention someone on my blog it is my belief that they have the RIGHT to reply.

Robert was moved to reply to my blog about masculine spirituality and he asked, not demanded, I publish his response. Here it is – totally unedited.


Dear Robert,

You were discussed on this blog and your are entitled to respond.

Can I first of all say tar when you visited me I enjoyed our chat and do believe that you are 100% sincere.

We did also agree that we would record a video interview for your channel but you have not, to date, honoured that agreement?

I agree with you that a vital part of developing a masculine spirituality is about helping men to be authentic men, authentic husbands and authentic fathers.

Although men who do not choose to be partnered or have kids also need an authentic spirituality.

18,000 Abortions?

You attribute these abortions, partially at least, to the men, as fathers not preventing them.

Most men who try and stop abortions are given short thrift by women who say to them: “It’s my body. I’ll do what I want with my body”.

And civil law in this respect at least, is on the side of the woman

30 years ago I tried to persuade a family member not to have an abortion.

I was told where to go by the woman involved and her partner.

And there are men and women who have abortions who say and belueve they act in good conscience?


You clearly are confusing the CATHOLIC FAITH with the CATHOLIC CHURCH.

The Catholic Church just now, and for a while at least is not BEAUTUFIL. It is VERY UGLY!

The face of the Catholic Church is marred by child sexual abuse, adult sexual abuse, the mass graves of children, priests in gay saunas, seminaries being gay knocking shops, the rape of nuns, the Magdalen Laundries, the graves of native indiginous children and universal corruption and financial scandal.

Why not, in TRUTH and in GOD”s name acknowledge this REALITY?

I have and try to practice the CATHOLIC FAITH.

It’s about Scripture, the Sacraments, prayer, meditation, the saints, great spiritual writings.

And secondly its about serving God and neighbour.

Please! Please stop confusing the CATHOLIC FAITH with the CATHOLIC CHURCH/ INSTITUTION!


Robert, masturbation is a perfectly normal part of sexuality. 95% of men do it right through life.

The other 5% are either sexually dysfunctional, have a mental / physical illness or are just liars.

Masturbation even prevents prostate cancer.

I do agree that there can be psychological problems when people cannot have sex any other way except by masturbation.

But that is psychological dysfunction and not grave sin.

The only circumstances where I think masturbation can be a sin is when someone says to God: “Lord, I am now going to masturbate and I am doing it purely to annoy you, defy you and piss you off”.

In my 70 years on this earth I have never come across a single person who did that.

PORN is a bit different. There are issues about contributing to the disrespect of the porn stars.

There are issues about men in particular viewing sexuality solely in terms of porn.

There are issues around porn addiction.

But so often these issues are issues in the psychological sphere rather than in the theological.


You and folk who think like you are fixated on the Latin Mass and some are weaponising this liturgy against Francis, Vatican II and the so called novus ordo.

If we want to go back to basics – the first language of the Mass was Aramaic.

Jesus, who celebrated the First Mass wore no vestments and said Mass facing His congregation.

There was no bells, no incense and no birettas.


In your recent videos you are suggesting, if not saying, that you have been called by Jesus and Mary, quite literally, to be a prophet in your pronouncements.

I don’t doubt your sincerity nor can I judge your soul.

But, are you not in danger of becoming another Mark Kirby?



Every day of her old age, roughly from age 85 onward, she would wake at 6:45 a.m. and start her day with prayer. Then, she’d sit in her armchair and do gymnastics while wearing headphones, which included arm and leg exercises, and finger flexing. Then she’d shower, without help from her caretakers, and finish getting ready by dousing her body in olive oil.

Meet Madam Jeanne Louise Calment, who had the longest confirmed human lifespan: 122 years, 164 days. Apparently, fate strongly approved of the way she lived her life. She was born in Arles, France, on February 21, 1875. The Eiffel Tower was built when she was 14 years old. It was at this time she met Vincent van Gogh. “He was dirty, badly dressed, and disagreeable,” she recalled in an interview given in 1988.
When she was 85, she took up fencing, and still rode her bike when she reached 100. At the age of 114, she starred in a film about her life, at age 115 she had an operation on her hip, and at age 117 she gave up smoking, having started at the age of 21 in 1896. She didn’t give it up for health reasons; her reason was that she didn’t like having to ask someone to help her light a cigarette once she was nearly blind.
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In 1965, Jeanne was 90 years old and had no heirs. She signed a deal to sell her apartment to a 47-year-old lawyer called André-François Raffray. He agreed to pay her a monthly sum of 2,500 francs on the condition he would inherit her apartment after she died. However, Raffray not only ended up paying Jeanne for 30 years, but then died before she did at the age of 77. His widow was legally obliged to continue paying Madam Calment until the end of her days.
Jeanne retained sharp mental faculties. When she was asked on her 120th birthday what kind of future she expected to have. Her reply, “A very short one.”

Here are the Rules of Life from Jeanne Louise Calment:
“I’m in love with wine.”
“All babies are beautiful.”
“I think I will die of laughter.”
“I’ve been forgotten by our Good Lord.”
“I’ve got only one wrinkle, and I’m sitting on it.”
“I never wear mascara; I laugh until I cry often.”
“If you can’t change something, don’t worry about it.”
“Always keep your smile. That’s how I explain my long life.”
“I see badly, I hear badly, and I feel bad, but everything’s fine.”
“I have a huge desire to live and a big appetite, especially for sweets.”
“I have legs of iron, but to tell you the truth, they’re starting to rust and buckle a bit.”
“I took pleasure when I could. I acted clearly and morally and without regret. I’m very lucky.”
“Being young is a state of mind, it doesn’t depend on one’s body. I’m actually still a young girl, it’s just that I haven’t looked so good for the past 70 years.”
At the end of one interview, the journalist said, “Madame, I hope we will meet again sometime next year.” To which Jeanne replied, “Why not? You’re not that old; you’ll still be here!”
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The image with the wings is a piece of art by
L. Lichtenfells


Someone once quipped:

“Is there life before death”?

But the question is loaded with wisdom and meaning.

As Catholics we were brought up believing that Eternal Life was the real life and that this life was the unpleasant trial that got you there.

We’re were also told that the BODY was bad and SOUL was good.

Utter tripe!

Our life on earth is one of the greatest, if not the greatest gift that God / Nature has bestowed on us.

And everything in life – relationships, food, drink, sex, travel etc is essentially good and only problematic when misused or abused by us human beings.

We should enjoy life and all its gifts to the full.

We should squeeze the last bits out of the toothpaste tube and the orange.

Of course, we are called to a certain moderation, to sharing and to an immense care for our brothers and sisters in the world.

We also know, logically and rationally, that things like smoking, alcohol abuse, drugs etc are bad for us, bad for our families and communities and and for the earth.

I have never smoked, thank God. And I enjoy a drink, good food, holidays, companionship and cars.

I also know I am called to share my money and possessions with others – and I try to do that. Not to do so is a sin.

But, for God’s sake let us not waste life or not enjoy it.

Madame Calment is an inspiration.

For me, the way to get to Eternal Heaven, is by making this life we have, as “heavenly” for ourselves and others as we can.

Jesus and the Christian Church has taught this.

Jesus said: “The Kingdom of God is already among you” Luke 17:21.

In the Christian faith we talk about the eschaton– the final time or event.

When I studied theology under Dr Tom Marsh he told us about realised eschaton and futuristic eschaton. He told is that the Kingdom is already among us – as well as waiting for us.

When Jesus was challenged about why his ciscoples were not fasting He replied:

“Jesus replied, “Do wedding guests fast while celebrating with the groom? Of course not. They can’t fast while the groom is with them”.

Mark 2 : 19

As Christians, who already have tge Kingdom among us, and still have the Ridegroom with us, we can still celebrate.

Madame Calment knew that. Her first act everyday for 121 years plus was prayer.

Why is it that so many Christians look as if they are at a wake and not at the celebration with the Bridegroom?



The RCC has always been better at attracting and “keeping” women rather than men.

Catholicism in Ireland since the arrival of Cardinal Cullen and his devotional revolution concentrated on the emotional and the superstitious.

As a general but not exclusive rule, women are superior to men when it comes to owning and expressing emotions.

I think gay men, who are integrated are better at emotions than straight men – but I stand to be corrected.

So Ireland’s females were more drawn into Cullen’s devotional – Mary, the Rosary, the saints, novenas, indulgences etc.

I remember as a child attending Mass in Pollagh, Co. Offaly, that the women and children were inside the church for the whole Mass, while the men played cards outside the door and popped in, on one knee, to be present for the consecration of the Mass.

The men experienced a sense of belonging, integration and community after Mass and in the pub.

When I did my masters in QUB we studied the origin and function of the pub in Irish society. The pub was the one place where men were free from the WOMAN and the PRIEST, as at that time, women and priests did not frequent the pub.

As men and women we share many aspects of our spirituality together.

But as different genders, our total experience of spirituality is different.

Spiritually speaking:

Being a father is a different experience to being a mother.

Being a son is a different experience to being a daughter.

At the level of the integration of our spirituality and sexuality are different experiences for men and women.

Spiritually, men and women experience many things differently – success, failure, joy, sorrow, sickness etc.

When I used to host spirituality events at BELFAST PRIDE, I used to say to the gay Christians that instead of cursing the churches for rejecting them, they should develope their own gay or queer theology and pastoral care.

It’s the same for men. If we are to attract them to the faith, we are going to have to develope a theology and pastoral practice for men.

I know ROBERT NUGENT talks about this. But he seems to be focusing on getting “underground” groups of men praying the Rosary and straining to avoid masturbation!

I think a real, authentic and effective masculine should not be focused on the evil of masturbation.

Very many sexual acts including masturbation end with the person, even if they are an atheist, saying or shouting Oh God!

Can men, and women, find God in sexual pleasure?

Could it, properly looked at, present us with massive new insights.

I published a whole about this in 2005.

This book does not present ALL the answers.

But it does outline avenues of possible progress.




The new RC bishop of East Anglia does, unfortunately, bear a close resemblance to comedian Dick Emery 😞



What a awful carry on in East Anglia cathedral.

Poor Alana Hopes, the outgoing bishop, is is hard to listen to but the incoming one is even worse.

Their off-putting posh, stuffed nose English accents are awful and their 19 th century clotted cream piousity is disastrous.

I suppose these days Rome is looking for a safe pair of hands and someone without a whiff of scandal.

And, of course in England, former seminary rectors and staff seem to get appointed.

But very often these men are quasi academics and do not great pastoral experience.

In fairness to Collins, has served in several parishes in Cardiff.

But he does not strike me as a man who knows what a litre of milk or a loaf of bread costs.

Nor does he strike me as a man a married man could go to to talk about his emotional and sexual struggles within his marriage.

But I suppose nowadays bishops do not do much counselling or hear too many confessions. It’s a desk job these days.

I can remember my ordaining bishop, Michael Russell of Waterford, hearing confessions in Waterford cathedral every Saturday.

That was handy for those who had committed “mortal sins” that were reserved to the bishop.

These days, bishops in many places are like the captain of the Titanic – managing decline and closure.





Ryan M. Aleer is a doctoral researcher at the Faculty of Theology and Religious Studies, KU Leuven, and a member of the Research Unit Systematic Theology and Study of Religion.

His previous studies include a Bachelor (double honours) in History and Philosophy from Maynooth University, Ireland, in 2008, and a Bachelor of Sacred Theology from the Pontifical Gregorian University, Rome, in 2011. After several years working as the Diocesan Advisor for Religious (Primary) Education in the Archdiocese of Armagh (Ireland), he obtained a Research Master: Master of Advanced Studies in Theology and Religion with a major in Systematic Theology, as well as a Licentiate of Sacred Theology, at KU Leuven in 2021. He has just completed a Master of Education at Queen’s University, Belfast (2022).

His doctoral research, under the supervision of Prof. Dr. Lieven Boeve and Prof. Dr. Didier Pollefeyt, explores the systematic theological foundations of the Catholic Dialogue School. A study of the dialogical philosophies of Emmanuel Lévinas and Martin Buber will help the project propose a rich concept of dialogue with which to understand divine revelation. This, in turn, hopes to provide the systematic theological underpinnings for a vision of the Catholic Dialogue School in the post-secular, post-Christian, and post-conflict context of Northern Ireland.

He is a member of the European Society for Catholic Theology, the European Academy of Religion.


I have had direct contact with young men who claim that they have been sexually assaulted by Ryan Mc Aleer!

I know for a fact that EamonMartin has personally some of these victims.

I know for a fact that the Armagh Safeguarding Officer, Aidan Gordan.


One of those victims has told me personally that Eamon Martin said HE BELIEVED HIM!

After one incident a young man was left with serious human bite marks on his body!

One young male victim made a formal complaint to the PSNI and that complaint was vestigated – resulting in the situation where it was the victim’s word against the word of the alleged perpetrator.

Since ordination in 2012 Ryan Mc Aleer has been the blue eyed boy and given pleasant and cushy appointments.

He has been the favourite of first Brady and now E Martin.

As we saw above:

After several years working as the Diocesan Advisor for Religious (Primary) Education in the Archdiocese of Armagh (Ireland), he obtained a Research Master: Master of Advanced Studies in Theology and Religion with a major in Systematic Theology, as well as a Licentiate of Sacred Theology, at KU Leuven in 2021. He has just completed a Master of Education at Queen’s University, Belfast (2022).

Mc Aleer has been a priest for 10 years. And for most of that time he has been hanging around schools and doing further studies – all paid for by Eamon Martin.

He has also been supported and lionised by the local GAA.

Living in the Dungannon are he has earned a reputation for his heavy drinking and associated with the use of other substances.

He has laughed in the faces of people who have told him that Karma will catch up with him.

On who or where will EAMON MARTIN now impose him

BRADY met his Waterloo over his disgraceful interviewing of the little boys abused by BRENDAN SMITH.


Shame on Ryan Mc Aleer.

A double shame on EAMON MARTIN.




The names of those who lost their lives in Creeslough have been officially released by An Garda Síochana, Donegal in association with the families.


 Prayer for the Dead

Heavenly Father, please hear this prayer for Catherine. James, Shauna Martin, Robert, Leona, Hugh, James, Jessica a d Martina, and provide these souls with your abundance of love as they enter your heavenly kingdom. Help the families and loved ones left behind to understand that you have a plan for everyone. Help them to find peace in their time of mourning and to know that no matter what you are always with them through the pain that they may be feeling. Amen.